I was reading Genesis 3 last night and thinking... 

why did eve sin? what made her eat the fruit? 

I would say it was because she wanted to have something she felt she was missing out on.. 

if I think about this... when we sin.. it is because we are trying to get something more.. more attention.. more love.. more money.. more power.. more friends...

what makes us constantly want more? I have a happy life.. I have a great job.. I have family.. what more am I looking for?

to be honest with you it is sex.. or is it love on a personal level? I really am not sure.. I am not sure I can deal with someone in my private space all the time.. but I know I want to be intimate with someone.. but not only physically intimate.. I want someone to know me.. to be connected to me.. to love me all the time.. even when they don't like me so much... to not leave me... to not give up on me.. to value me enough to stay... 

and I know that God is all those things.. truly I am satisfied with God.. but I believe within us is the desire for communion with another person.. the bible says God created a woman because the man shouldn't be alone.. it wasn't good for him.. so I believe this is really God's plan for us... so why does it seem so elusive? 

this I don't have an answer for... I don't want sex.. I want love.. I want to give love and receive it back... sighs... 

and I am believing because this is God's will for mankind.. that He will put me in a relationship to have this.. in Jesus name..