lesson from a man/child...

for my birthday... my son gives me... 15 'do it right nows'.. what this really means is.. he can't wait... he has to get up and do it right when I say so...

well... I am learning something about patience from this... probably something about mothering too... because... I don't want to use them all up and then need one... so it causes me to think about how much time to give him to do something...

like this morning I gave him a few tasks to do while I am at work and he wanted to know if this was a 'do it right now'... I say no, you have till I get home to do it...

I think too often I expect just because I am the mother that I expect them to do what I said right away... yet... do I do this myself? how often do I put something off... and think... just like them... as long as I do it... that should be good enough when I get to it... yet I expect something different of them...

I think when I have my new family... I will not expect right now all the time... I will be a little more gracious with the patience... and I am sure everyone involved will appreciate it...

I also think that I will learn myself to be a little more obedient to authority... and give some 'do it right nows' too...

faith vs. trust

faith-firm belief in something for which there is no proof.

trust-assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something.

hmmm... those definitions come from the webster dictionary... I find that I would say... BEFORE I looked up the definitions... that I have faith in God but I have issues with trust so tend to not trust... even God... but after I look up the definitions... trust is relying on the character of someone... and I know that I can rely on the character of God... I know that God has pulled me out of mess after mess after mess... and He hasn't put me in any so far... so how would trusting Him be an issue...

it's weird... if I were to lose my job... or lose my house.. or my car... I would easily TRUST God and know that He will work it all out for me... but you know where I have issues?? with people.. I don't seem to trust God over people...

you would think that it would be easier to trust than to have faith... trust would be believing in something already proven to be reliable... faith is complete darkness you are believing in something with NO proof... so why would it be easier to have faith in a God that you can't see than it is to trust One who has proven Himself?? that really doesn't make any sense...

real love... the hard kind...

God wants us to love people in spite of what they do to us and that is REALLY hard... it is easy to say that you love someone yet never have anything to do with them... I can easily love people that way... from a distance... but when you are up on someone and they aren't treating you right... is it God's will to ignore them or shut them off?

my son has a baby mama that I have been refusing to deal with... she is disrespectful.. she is selfish... she is rude... she is manipulating.. and yesterday.. for no apparent reason... she cusses at me through text.. and I tell her that she WILL NOT cuss at me and treat me with disrespect... and that I did not lay down and have this baby and I will not deal with the way she wants to treat people... and she cusses again... and I block her number... so she cannot bother me again...

what would Jesus do?
do I really believe that Jesus would refuse to deal with this person... just refuse any contact whatsoever... (no matter how bad I want to do this...) or am I to show the love of God... even to someone disrespecting me and treating me badly for no reason...

I would suggest we all look at someone that we really just don't want to deal with... (they test our religion or our christianity... who we really are deep down inside...) and I suggest we show them love of God in spite of what they say or how they act... because this really is what Jesus would do...

this really is the love of God for you and me and for ALL His people... and we are to be the love of God for the world... we are His Body... we are His Heart...