you know a have a son... who I love dearly.. he has a great heart.. he is silly.. he is fun... 

and he is always in trouble... somehow he just refuses to do what he knows is the right thing.. he is always on the wrong path... 

that does not in any way cause me to love him any less.. or stop me from praying for his change daily... I do pray daily that he will realize that life is fragile and bad choices could cause him to lose his... but I have to trust God with him.. he belongs to God.. not me.. 

if my son were in the wrong place.. at the wrong time.. doing the wrong thing... and he was killed... it would break my heart.. but I would know this was a choice he made... to do the wrong thing... and I could not blame it on the person that caused it... because if he were doing something else.. it probably wouldn't have happened... 

too often we look at someone and decide a tragedy should not have happened... and we look for someone to blame... but all things were allowed by God.. 

my son was raised the same way as my daughter.. he chose a different path.. we have to see our children as they really are.. not as we wanted them to be.. and love them in spite of it... and accept what happens as God's will... because they don't belong to us anyways.. we have no ownership... our job is to love them and teach them of God.. that is all we get... and we should be thankful for that.. 

Proverbs 24: 17Don’t rejoice when your enemies fall; don’t be happy when they stumble. 18For the lord will be displeased with you and will turn his anger away from them.

I have to say that in the past I was very guilty of being happy when someone I disliked had problems or troubles... I was a terrible person before Jesus.. that is for sure... 

I can say now that I can have compassion on someone even if they are mean or hateful towards me... I can feel sorry for someone that I do not like all that much... 

I am very thankful for all the changes that God has made in me as a person... I am still not good all the time.. that is for sure.. just yesterday I was thinking how ridiculous a particular person was... but then God has to set me aside and let me know that whether I am right in what I see on that person.. or whether I am wrong... all of it is none of my business... so while I am not all that I wish I were.. I am certainly so much better than the hard hearted ruthless person I was in the past and all of it is due to the goodness of God!