Tuesday, January 26, 2016

exodus 13: 11 “This is what you must do when the Lord fulfills the promise he swore to you and to your ancestors. When he gives you the land where the Canaanites now live, 12 you must present all firstborn sons and firstborn male animals to theLord, for they belong to him. 13 A firstborn donkey may be bought back from the Lord by presenting a lamb or young goat in its place. But if you do not buy it back, you must break its neck. However, you must buy back every firstborn son.
14 “And in the future, your children will ask you, ‘What does all this mean?’ Then you will tell them, ‘With the power of his mighty hand, the Lord brought us out of Egypt, the place of our slavery. 15 Pharaoh stubbornly refused to let us go, so the Lord killed all the firstborn males throughout the land of Egypt, both people and animals. That is why I now sacrifice all the firstborn males to the Lord—except that the firstborn sons are always bought back.’ 16 This ceremony will be like a mark branded on your hand or your forehead. It is a reminder that the power of the Lord’s mighty hand brought us out of Egypt.
​I read this and wonder.. how do you buy back a son from God??
I wonder what God really meant when he said that...... ​

so I look it up.. and apparently when God called the levites His.. He stopped saying that all firstborn males are His... I don't remember ever seeing that.. I wonder if that would also be now.. like the first born male of a preacher would belong to God... that is some kind of interesting.. (numbers 3: 11-12)
I think God chooses who He chooses.. but I would also think that in some form He is still going with the original laws He made.. meaning that the law of the firstborn still exists.. just not the same way we would see it in our mind.. 

Thursday, January 21, 2016

today I am reading a devotional and the translation they used for Hebrews 5: 14 says 'They were not ready for a solid diet of self sacrifice'. 

I have to say.... some days.. many days I feel I am in that place!!! 
I DO NOT want to live a life of self sacrifice.. somehow I want to be in God's will for my life.. but I want it to be attractive and fun and desireable.. not this struggle to keep walking in the way I believe God wants me to... 
I mean why is it that some people can get away with doing certain things and it is as if God is all right with it because He hasn't called them away from it... it is frustrating.. I don't want to keep going on this believing trail.. I don't want to go without things I desire because they aren't what is right for me.. so when will what is right for me ever show up?? surely I am not getting any younger... 

Father give me the willingness to live the life you have called me to.. to sacrifice the things of the world to live in peace with the Spirit..