Titus 1: 15 Everything is pure to those whose hearts are pure. But nothing is pure to those who are corrupt and unbelieving, because their minds and consciences are corrupted. 16 Such people claim they know God, but they deny him by the way they live. They are detestable and disobedient, worthless for doing anything good.

what do you think of this scripture?

everything is pure to those whose hearts are pure... well the problem with that is the reality that as much as we pray for it and hope for it and even strive towards it.. our hearts are not pure... 

seems to me I can keep my motives and heart pure for a short while then before long I am back to feeling like doing what God wants me to do is too high a cost... I am not good enough to remain this righteous all the days of my life... 

such people claim they know God but deny Him by the way they live... 

I would have to say that sometimes I fall into that category... sometimes I am just caught up in my own emotions and don't do right... 

I think that learning to control our emotions could be the most valuable lesson we might ever learn.. I personally think it is much easier just to not have any emotions... but if we have to have them.. then surely the key to happiness is in learning to control them and not be led by them... 

1 Timothy 4: Now the Holy Spirit tells us clearly that in the last times some will turn away from the true faith; they will follow deceptive spirits and teachings that come from demons. 2 These people are hypocrites and liars, and their consciences are dead.

deception is something that really bothers me.. obviously because if we are deceived we don't know it... so we could follow the wrong thing or have the wrong belief for a long time... and we would not even know it.. 

women are more susceptible to deception than men I think .. the bible tells us that it was eve that was deceived.. adam's sin was being spineless and going along with her.. not telling her she was wrong... he knew she was wrong all along... she allowed herself to be fooled into thinking it was all right.. 

I don't want to be deceived... yet if I were.. I guess I wouldn't know it because no one is telling me I am.. 

I read my bible daily... I read the it over and over.. I want to be sure that I know the bible and I am not deceived by false prophets or false teachers.. so I know the bible for myself... someone who doesn't really read the bible for themselves tends to go along with whatever someone has told them is in it.. they can't know who God really is.. can't know His character... not for sure... 

most of my life I heard God speaking to me... I knew what He wanted and what He didn't want... that doesn't mean I really went along with Him.. just that I knew what He was saying... over the past few years my communication from Him has changed.. He is not as easily discernible as He was previously... it has been a very hard adjustment for me... I was thinking how as I read the bible a peace or calm comes over me.. I become secure in Him in a way I am not at any other time... when I am reading my bible.. I completely trust Him... whatever He wants to do is all right with me... 

yesterday a woman I love very much told me that God has changed with her too.. and she finds that in reading the word of God.. that is where He reveals Himself to her... lights click on... that is why I am so secure in the bible... God is communicating with me again... just in a different manner...  through the bible... 

whoever you are.. whatever your life.. read the word of God.. read the bible for yourself.. know God.. know that He loves you.. know that you can be at peace with Him... 

I timothy 2: 8 In every place of worship, I want men to pray with holy hands lifted up to God, free from anger and controversy.

9 And I want women to be modest in their appearance. They should wear decent and appropriate clothing and not draw attention to themselves by the way they fix their hair or by wearing gold or pearls or expensive clothes. 10 For women who claim to be devoted to God should make themselves attractive by the good things they do.

11 Women should learn quietly and submissively. 12 I do not let women teach men or have authority over them. Let them listen quietly. 13 For God made Adam first, and afterward he made Eve. 14 And it was not Adam who was deceived by Satan. The woman was deceived, and sin was the result. 15 But women will be saved through childbearing, assuming they continue to live in faith, love, holiness, and modesty.

as a woman... before you go feeling like this is demeaning you or putting you down... think about some women that you feel are too showy.. too loud.. too abrasive.. too forward... 

as you think of one of these women... and you see them being this way instead.. can you somewhat see why he is speaking this way? 

I used to be one of those women.. I probably still am to some people's minds.. LOLOL!! I see why this is abrasive and obnoxious.. I can easily pull a few women to mind that I think this way about.. 

can you now think of someone you see as a strong woman, but quieter and confident.. but now loud and showy... and can you see how that would be so much more appealing... now don't imagine I am saying we are to all be the same.. all to be alike... we are all individuals.. I tend to be outspoken... but that doesn't mean I have to be loud or obnoxious with it... I can speak without being abrasive.. 

as a man.. this is not a free pass to be abusive and demeaning.. this is giving you the chance to stand up and become the leader that God has created you to be... to be a strong man who protects and comforts his woman without pushing her down and making her less than what she is... instead you can see her value in your life and know she is made just for you.. and you are her head.. her protector.. the love of her life... 

Ecclesiastes 1: 8 Everything is wearisome beyond description. No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content.

I have been waiting on something from God for a very long time.. 7years... I have been faithful and kept myself pure... yet I am still waiting.. and because I am waiting expectantly.. I tend to be dissatisfied... I tend to be constantly wanting today to be the day... always striving.... 

now if I am honest with myself.. I am not sure that this 'promise' will make me happy.. in truth.. I think it will make me less happy than I am right now... right now I have no problems.. no one to tell me what to do... I am honestly very comfortable and very happy... 

but the issue is.. I believe the promise is attached to my kingdom purpose... so I am unsatisfied not doing what God has created me and called me to do.. so I would rather be less happy and in God's will completely... 

so today I think... Lord.. I am happy.. I don't need anything else from you.. just your presence... just your voice.. just sight of your will... as far as anything else goes.. if you decide to bring it to me.. I will accept it and be thankful... and if you decide to leave me right where I am for the rest of my life.. I will be happy and thankful right here... so whatever you want to do or not do.. I am on board with it.. because I love you more than I love being happy.. and I am tired of being discontent waiting for something I am no longer even sure of.. 

1 Timothy 6: 6 Yet true godliness with contentment is itself great wealth.

Philippians 4: 11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have.