trust...

Psalms 33: 4 For the word of the LORD holds true, and we can trust everything he does.

I have real trust issues... I believe in God completely... I know without doubts that He will fix everything.. He will take care of me.. He will provide for me... He will lead me to a job.. a house.. food.. finances... a car.. I completely trust God in these physical areas.. completely...

but when it comes to my heart... like any other man... I tend to be wary of trusting even God... I see things in my head.. I know they are truth.. yet and still when it comes to believe it when it gets dark out.. I get fearful.. I get untrusting..

now I know that no matter what happens.. I will be fine.. I will overcome.. I will not fall apart or die.. yet I try valiantly to protect my heart.. when God really wants us to give our hearts away and trust Him to protect them..

I am not yet at that point.. although I am striving..