fear of the Lord...

Psalms 147: 11 No, the LORD’s delight is in those who fear him, those who put their hope in his unfailing love.

my life has been a battle of right and wrong.. I would guess everyones is.. mine wasn't just right and wrong decisions.. more like right and wrong living.. I never completely let go of God.. yet never completely followed Him either... so this last time when I turned from the world completely.. I felt that I did it because this was my last shot at living right.. my last chance to do God's will or lose Him... now I know that the bible says God will never leave us nor forsake us.. but it also says that He will turn us over to a reprobate mind.. which is what he did to king nebuchadnezzar for a period...

nebuchadnezzar felt HE was ruler of the universe.. well God took his mind.. and he found out.. God is the ONLY ruler of the universe...

Daniel 4: 30 As he looked out across the city, he said, ‘Look at this great city of Babylon! By my own mighty power, I have built this beautiful city as my royal residence to display my majestic splendor.’ 31 “While these words were still in his mouth, a voice called down from heaven, ‘O King Nebuchadnezzar, this message is for you! You are no longer ruler of this kingdom. 32 You will be driven from human society. You will live in the fields with the wild animals, and you will eat grass like a cow. Seven periods of time will pass while you live this way, until you learn that the Most High rules over the kingdoms of the world and gives them to anyone he chooses.’ 33 “That same hour the judgment was fulfilled, and Nebuchadnezzar was driven from human society. He ate grass like a cow, and he was drenched with the dew of heaven. He lived this way until his hair was as long as eagles’ feathers and his nails were like birds’ claws. 34 “After this time had passed, I, Nebuchadnezzar, looked up to heaven. My sanity returned, and I praised and worshiped the Most High and honored the one who lives forever.

so I have felt.. that this time.. if I were to turn from following the Lord completely.. I would be at the state of being turned over to the reprobate mind... I felt as if I were running on the beach and the Lord pushed my face in the sand and made me finally completely turn myself over to Him... and I did... and I admit.. I FEAR the Lord.. I KNOW His power and His might.. and I am very fearful to disobey Him.. I don't think we get something as easy as death when He punishes us.. instead we get living hell.. whether it is our mind or our body or our circumstances.. whatever it is.. when God says enough is enough.. know that He is serious and we will pay a HIGH cost of disobedience...

someone recently said that they follow God out of love for Him... I would agree that I love God like I have never loved anyone or anything.. but I also have a healthy fear and respect for His power.. His might.. and the weight of His hand... and I truly reverence.. respect.. and fear the Lord... as well as loving Him...