Psalms 41:9 Even my close friend, someone I trusted, one who shared my bread, has turned against me.

I have always... been strange about friends.. I have always only called one or two people friends... and I am still able to be just as close as ever with people who I grew up with yet rarely talk to... for me.. friendship is not based on how often you talk to someone.. it is based on trust... if I can't trust you.. I find it hard to love you...

I have been given the gift of seeing the spirit within a person... almost always.. my initial positive or negative feel for a person is exactly right... yet sometimes.. I get sidetracked by the fact that I like someone.. and I get deceived by them... not because God didn't warn me.. but because I refused to see it.. because I like the person... this has only ever happened to me a few times in my life... normally.. I will go with my initial feeling.. but sometimes for whatever circumstance.. I am almost bound to be around someone.. whether it be family or whatever... that is when I get sucked under...

I have learned once again.. trust the inner voice of the Lord.. He will never steer you wrong..