safety

as previously stated... I was abused in a previous life.. people don't understand abuse.. they don't understand the women who have been abused... they easily say why would you stay... you will never understand if you have not been abused... I could stand here and tell you all the right words to make you hear, but understanding still would not come... this causes you to become a different breed of person... your emotions have to become encased in steel so that no one can touch them or see them... emotions become a weakness to someone who is abused..
in my abuse.. God sent an angel to save me... He moved a man into my house while I was in the abusive situation and this man physically saved my life daily... he also saved me emotionally because he showed me what a man was supposed to be.. this man gave me safety... I had to leave this man because I thought I needed him... he became the one who saved me instead of just the one the real Savior used... so I could not stay with him... God will never allow another to become more than Him... He will remove them... that is one of the reasons that marriage needs to be about kingdom instead of about love... about committment to God instead of desire for a man...
God taught me that true safety only comes from Him...
a man asked do I make people around me safe... do I promote safety or destruction... that was a big thing to me... I want to be a safe place for anyone who needs me... I have some changing to continue doing before I will be this safe place for everyone... I have to be a giver at all times... I have to be a keeper of secrets... keeper of confidence... I do keep confidence... sometimes when I have questions I will go to a person that I trust and ask questions without telling names... that is not for me to do.... to keep confidence is to keep full confidence... God help me to take my questions to only you... never to man, even though the man is trustworthy.... continue to create in me the woman of God that you are calling me to be... continue to perfect me and make me in your image.. on the inside as well as the outside...