Philippians 2: ⁵ You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had. ⁶ Though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to. ⁷ Instead, he gave up his divine privileges; he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being. When he appeared in human form, ⁸ he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.

 

I think about humility sometimes... this is NOT an area of my gifting... I battle to not be prideful and selfish at ALL times...

 

I was recently saying... when I was full of pride (meaning even worse than now) I was confident... I believed I was beautiful, God loved me the mostest.., I was a prize.... then I seemed to have realized that God loves everyone the most.. not only me.. and I was no longer special to Him... so I lost all my confidence it seems.. I was not prideful (as much) I was unsure of my looks and my goodness.. my value in general..

 

so you wonder.. how does a person remain humble.. yet be confident... the answer is easy to say... it is to be confident in God and not self... but to really live that out.. that is not as easy as the words are to say....

 

maybe I will never be confident like I was before.. maybe I am not supposed to be.. idk... humility is something that makes me feel 'less than'... and I doubt it is supposed to be this way................ *sighs*