Ecclesiastes 1: ⁷ Rivers run into the sea, but the sea is never full. Then the water returns again to the rivers and flows out again to the sea. ⁸ Everything is wearisome beyond description. No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content.

 

we are talking about being content... about not keeping our focus on God.. but over and over the focus turns and is again centered on me.. what about what I feel.. what about what I think.. what about what I want...

 

I can easily see the issues with the israelites... we read the old testament and think how stupid they were... how God gave them victory after victory and right after a victory they went right back to thinking again about what they want and what they want and their focus was once again off God and onto self... just like us...

 

and we can say that isn't what it is.. .but it is... every time I leave God.. or not even leave him.. but maybe put Him in the closet so to speak.. it is because I want to be in the bar... or I want sex... or I quit tithing yet again because I want to buy something... and the list goes on and on and on...

 

I read something today that say we will either bow down and worship God.. or we stand up and worship self... that is the only two options there really are... and I wonder... how often am I thinking again about what I want rather than what God wants for me...

 

and the ridiculous part is.. I am good right now.. I am happy... I am not having lack of any sort... so why on earth wouldn't God by my constant thoughts of worship... why does it always go back to being about what I want?