Isaiah 8: 5 Then the Lord spoke to me again and said, 6 “My care for the people of Judah is like the gently flowing waters of Shiloah, but they have rejected it. They are rejoicing over what will happen to King Rezin and King Pekah. 7 Therefore, the Lord will overwhelm them with a mighty flood from the Euphrates River—the king of Assyria and all his glory. This flood will overflow all its channels 8 and sweep into Judah until it is chin deep. It will spread its wings, submerging your land from one end to the other, O Immanuel.

I was reading this and I thought... in some ways I am like this... there have been times in my life when God has rescued me from people wanting to hurt me or even someone close to me.. and I was rejoicing over what would or did happen to them... 

rather than focusing on the goodness of God.. I was focusing on the despair of someone else.. rather than focusing on God's love for me.. I was focusing on Him dealing with someone else... 

and I was so ashamed of myself for being like this... in my own mind.. I was thinking about God loving me rather than praying for someone headed for destruction... my selfishness and lack of compassion for someone else sometimes is truly overwhelming... 

create in me a clean heart and clean hands O Lord... please... change me from the inside out.. so that I can be the woman and the example of Your Love that You have called me to be.. in Jesus name I ask..