Proverbs 27: ⁴ Anger is cruel, and wrath is like a flood, but jealousy is even more dangerous.

 

during this insecure time in my life I have recognized that I have jealousy... I sometimes think my jealousy is based on selfishness though because I don't want someone else's.. I just don't want anyone to touch anything of mine... LOL!

 

recently I was looking at two people and I could almost see the jealousy on them.. not about me.. probably not about a person in general... but about a position... their desire for position and recognition was so great that I felt I could almost see it or cut it with a knife...

 

my thinking was... how sad to be so insecure in who you are made to be that you want this recognition and title so badly.. to allow it to eat you up...

 

then I was thinking of myself... and I thought... if something.. anything at all... has been given to me by God.. it would also mean that it would be mine until God determined it is no longer mine.. no one could 'take' it from me... and if God had determined something is not mine.. then no amount of fighting on my side would be able to cause me to have it or hold on to it...

 

I found this to be very freeing... I can't keep what is not mine.. and I can't lose what is.. so why worry about others touching/wanting it...