what shall I fear?

Joshua 4: 23 For the Lord your God dried up the river right before your eyes, and he kept it dry until you were all across, just as he did at the Red Sea when he dried it up until we had all crossed over. 24 He did this so all the nations of the earth might know that the Lord’s hand is powerful, and so you might fear the Lord your God forever.”

Job 4: 13 It came to me in a disturbing vision at night, when people are in a deep sleep. 14 Fear gripped me, and my bones trembled. 15 A spirit swept past my face, and my hair stood on end.

Psalms 118: 6 The Lord is for me, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me? 7 Yes, the Lord is for me; he will help me. I will look in triumph at those who hate me.

I was thinking about fear this week... I was thinking about me.. and questioning what really makes me afraid? I am not an exceptionally fearful person... I see things that most people don't.. so I am not really a fearful person... in this life I have learned that no matter what the situation is.. no matter how it ends.. God is going to take care of me.. if I have no money and no house.. somehow He will provide a way.. I have seen this happen in my life repeatedly... I trust this... if someone is against me.. He will move them somehow someway.. I have seen this repeatedly.. I trust this too... so what do I fear?

well.. I do have a healthy fear of God.. some would call it reverence.. I am telling you it is fear... I know for sure and for certain that if He got mad enough.. He has the ability to smite me... He is still the same God of the old testament.. I know from the bible that this is not His desire.. but if I continue to disobey Him.. well.. He certainly can do whatever He wants... so I fear going against Him...

I have terrible fear of being hurt by a man.. which is in actuality silly... I have been hurt physically by a man... I have been hurt emotionally too.. but I have never been destroyed by this type of hurt.. always.. God gives me a resilient heart.. and I get over it... sometimes it takes longer than other times... depending on the expectation involved...

I don't think we are born with fear... I think it is something learned... I am not sure that everyone learns it... my son never has learned it.. and surely he should have by now... even as a baby will crawl right off the end of a bed.. they have no fear.. you can thrown them in the air.. they have no fear of falling.. but as they get older.. they get afraid... so I am thinking fear is something learned... you get burned.. you stay away from the fire type of thing...

but I am not sure this was God's plan... I am thinking.. the only thing we are supposed to fear is God.. I think if we are obedient to God.. following in His path... (as best we know..) then we have nothing to fear.. God has told us that He will protect us.. what can man do to us if we are in God's will? if we are obedient to Him? now that is not to say that nothing hurtful will ever happen to us.. even in God's plan He will allow trials and tribulations to come.. this is what keeps us focused on Him I feel.. learning and growing in Him.. but we can know that whatever it is.. He has brought us to it.. because we are in His will.. and He will also bring us out of it victoriously...

this is going to be my new motto... I am determined...