peace

leviticus 26:6 “‘I will grant peace in the land, and you will lie down and no one will make you afraid. I will remove wild beasts from the land, and the sword will not pass through your country.

I can remember a time when I had no peace... I couldn't sleep... I couldn't think straight because there was so much turmoil in my life and moreso in my spirit.... I vividly remember that when I left my marriage the main thought in my head was... there is nothing in life worth more than peace of mind... yet at that time I really still didn't have much... I still was jumping at every noise.. I still was hiding my purse every night.. I still was worried all the time about what might come...

one of the most valuable lessons I think I learned when my life was in complete upheaval was the ability to laugh at all situations.. bear and deonna and me could find humor in ANYTHING... it didn't matter what it was.. we were laughing about it... deonna busted a man in the head with a coffee cup.. causing him to need like 30some stitches in his head... she left him at the hospital with a towel wrapped around his head so she didn't get charged with it... big greg chases jay around town with a huge board with nails coming out of it.. I am crying and asking bumpy to save him... none of those stories funny... yet we laughed and laughed and laughed... I think laughter healed us from much of our tragedy... I was going to a psychiatrist after jay died.. she asks to see deonna.. deonna goes in there and tells all these intimate details of stuff she lived through... I am looking at her like she lost her whole mind... what would possess her to tell all her business to a stranger like that?? she tells me that I'm wasting my time if I go and don't tell what's really going on... we laughed about that... the psychiatrist tells me before I quit going to her that I tell a story of something that happened to me as though it happened to a stranger... and she didn't seem to feel that was good.. she felt I live my life in 3rd person... (thus the naming of sueann.. my alter ego...)

but scripture tells us that if we turn from our sin.. repent and are forgiven.. then God will grant peace in our land.. that no one will make us afraid... that is completely the truth... I have peace now like never before in my life... I don't fear anyone but God pretty much...

peace is one of the greatest gifts a person can receive... thank you Lord.. for peace in my land.. and no one making me afraid.. He has removed all the wild beasts and the sword is not in my country... I am thankful... I am at rest...