fear vs. courage...

one day last week God was talking about courage and I thought it was for someone else... it was not... it was for me.. today at church the message hit home to me about my deepest fears... and I didn't want to talk about it... didn't want to hear about it from God... so finally this evening He has me look up fear in the topical bible...
and He gives me Isaiah 51:12-13 I am the LORD, the one who encourages you. Why are you afraid of mere humans? They dry up and die like grass. I spread out the heavens and laid foundations for the earth. But you have forgotten me, your LORD and Creator. All day long you were afraid of those who were angry and hoped to abuse you. Where are they now?
then He tells me that the opposite of fear is courage... and this was one of the scriptures He had given me last week.. zechariah 10: 3 -5God-of-the-Angel-Armies will step in and take care of his flock, the people of Judah. He'll revive their spirits, make them proud to be on God's side. God will use them in his work of rebuilding, use them as foundations and pillars, Use them as tools and instruments, use them to oversee his work. They'll be a workforce to be proud of, working as one, their heads held high, striding through swamps and mud, Courageous and vigorous because God is with them, undeterred by the world's thugs.

I think God is telling me that I have allowed the fear of the past to hold me captive long enough... and that even if all my fears come to pass... He is still with me... while I go through hell again if that is to be the case... but will I allow the will of God to pass me by out of fear of things that have already happened... things I have already overcome...
I have dreams alot and there is a big man in it... covering me and mine with an umbrella... and I found out that the umbrella stood for protection... today I know that the big man isn't real to the naked eye... he is an angel... he is my angel of protection... his name is Michael... the archangel... and he is walking with me... into the fear.. into the future... whatever it may hold... whether it be hell or be heaven...
Father... in the name of Jesus... I will go where you want me to go... I will do what you want me to do... even in the midst of fear... I will continue to walk into your will and trust you to protect me from all who may assail me...