so I was reading judges 15-17 last night... about samson... growing up in sunday school/bible study they really didn't talk to you openly about him other than him defeating the philistines and the horrible woman that cut his hair and got him captured and ultimately killed.. but even in captivity God used him to kill more philistines... 

and I was thinking about this.. and our natural inclination is to say that he was totally out of God's will for his life by marrying pagan women.. by getting himself involved with this woman delilah who ultimately betrayed him and got him killed.. but I don't really think that is the case... I think he was in God's will.. I think God gave him the desire he had for the pagan women.. I think his ultimate purpose was to come against the philistines which he did throughout his life for various reasons.. some being personal reasons.. but still it was used by God to destroy the enemy of the israelites... 

I think so many times we look at things we are drawn to or things we consider falling.. but many times we are actually in the will of God because God used those situations to change us or others.. now this doesn't mean this is always the case.. I CLEARLY heard from God that I was not to be with my kids' father.. I knew every time I was doing the wrong thing because God made me feel it within my spirit... but other things.. like me being drawn to men of another race over my own race.. I think those things come from my purpose in the kingdom of God.. even though I lost most of my family... it lead me to what God has created me for.. what my own life is to have meaning doing... so previously I may have thought these things were mistakes.. and really.. they were just the natural desires God put in me to fit me to His purpose... 

I think this is true for all of the people who have a purpose in God's kingdom.. we should look to see what the reasons for things might be... our desires and inclinations may be leading us toward our purpose in God...