Psalms 42: ¹ My soul is dry and thirsts for You, True God, as a deer thirsts for water. ² I long for the True God who lives. When can I stand before Him and feel His comfort? ³ Right now I’m overwhelmed by my sorrow and pain; I can’t stop feasting on my tears. People crowd around me and say, “Where is your True God whom you claim will save?”

⁵ Why am I so overwrought? Why am I so disturbed? Why can’t I just hope in God? Despite all my emotions, I will believe and praise the One who saves me and is my life.

 

why can't I just hope in God? why do we get so caught up in our feelings and circumstances that we can't remember how many times God has rescued us in the past.. or we do remember Him rescuing us but we think that we have done so much wrong that we cannot be saved anymore...

 

I wonder how many people feel like that... that they are too damaged to be saved now... I guess that is not really accepting God's love for us.. in our words we may say we accept it but apparently we are not really accepting it... how often do we doubt God's plans because we are not good enough? we have done too much.. our past has surely disqualified us...

 

I realize even with myself.. while I think I know how much God loves me.. there are just some things that I can feel like I am just not good enough for... maybe I can do the work but do not qualify for a real life christian man... maybe I can teach kids but am not qualified to teach women...

 

I think the best thing any of us can do is to search the bible to find out just how much we mean to God.. and learn to accept it.. despite who we are or who we used to be...