all along... from the time we are kids.. we are searching for real love.. we search for it in people and things... and we never find it there.. we may find a good feeling.. but the feeling doesn't last long term... we expect things from people that we can't get from them... not because they may not care.. maybe they don't.. but maybe they do.. but people cannot fulfill what it is that we need all the time.. only God can do that...

 

I had a man that loved me just like I would want to be loved... he was the perfect man for me.. he was thoughtful... he bought me presents.. if I were to tell you stories of the things he did for me.. your heart would melt and you would want him too... but for many reasons.. God told me this was not for me.. and I walked away from it.. because I have had too many things out of God's will and learned that they are never worth the cost... in my mind's eyes.. he had taught me what real love was... truly this was a man that was willing to kill for me.. and willing to die for me.. and he showed it.. to anyone who happened to look our way... the woman he married told me from her own mouth that he never loved anyone like he loved me.. and I thought this was what love was....

 

but now.. I have a man that doesn't give me the attention I want or need.. doesn't give me gifts.. doesn't give me time.. doesn't give me words... he doesn't even give me sex.. LOL... and I have no doubt that this man has been the one to teach me what real love is..

 

love isn't what someone does for us... not what someone gives us.. it isn't anything that you can touch.. anything you can even feel... real love.. true love is in what we give.. not what we receive... it takes a true love to continue to give when you receive nothing in return.. it takes a true love to continue to love when they don't show you anything at all... it takes the love of God flowing out of you for you to be able to do this.. that is what true love is...

 

God loved the people when they didn't love Him.. He continued to do for them when they didn't even look His way... He loved them in spite of the way they acted... even to the point of sending His own Son... and Jesus too loved us with a true love.. He loved us when we didn't believe in Him... He died for people who wanted Him crucified... He died in the hopes that they might be able to really live.. not live physically so much as live spiritually...

 

so I am learning that instead of dwelling on the way you want someone to love you... set about giving out that love to someone else... and I will not promise that it won't hurt.. or that it will be easy... I have never endured something as difficult as loving someone who won't show love in return... but that is where true love lies... in giving without the expectation of return... give what you desire.. not what you get back.... this is love...