vulnerable...

I find that the closer I get to God.. the less I really know who I am..

it seems that I have taken life and allowed it to create me into someone other than who God intended me to be... and now...when I desire to be the person God created... I struggle to be that person... God wants our complete dependence on Him.. and so He wants us to be completely open and vulnerable... and our flesh drives us to cover our vulnerability...

like when adam and eve sinned in the garden... immediately they realized they were naked and ran to cover themselves... but this is not what God intended... just as there was no need to cover ourselves in the first man and woman... God is our cover and there is no need to cover ourselves now...

yet I struggle to not run back and hide under some type of cover... mine tends to be hard heartedness and confidence in self... we all have our own cover... this is just the one I created... it is comfortable and warm and safe... or so we think...

how could what we create on our own be anywhere near what God has created for us? it is time for us to open ourselves up to vulnerability and allow God alone to be our cover... that is when we are trusting God and completely relying upon Him...

God is faithful... He is trustworthy... He is a cover for each one of us...