sometimes we are confused.. we are disillusioned... we are hurt by the very ones that should never hurt us... somehow hurt from someone who claims to walk with God is the worst hurt to endure... and it causes us to doubt God some days... I would never have thought this would have happened to me... and yet to a small degree it has..
I believed all my life that I hear from God... all my life the things that I hear happen.. most times anyways... I dream things and they are real... I see things and they are real... but what happens when we get unsure if we have ever heard from God? what do we do then?
last night I lay awake.. struggling with God... asking Him to show me He is real.. to show me that my mind didn't make up the things I believe He said... I felt like Jacob when he wrestled with God...
in the end... what I realize is this... I would never want to walk through the rest of my life thinking that my God is not real... and people don't have to answer to me for the things they do or do not do... just like I don't have to answer to people... we all have to answer to God for the things that we do.. and for our disobedience in not doing what we are supposed to do...
I will walk the path God placed me on... I will do what God has told me to do... I will show love to all mankind... I will continue to seek God and not man.. I know that God has been faithful to me in the past... I know that He will continue to be faithful to me... God is the lover of my soul... at all times... and in this I will rest...
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