it's not mine...

as you know.. I have been having this horrendous spiritual battle going on... (thinking surely this is the last few steps of this fight...)(of course I have been thinking that a long time... and it keeps getting heavier instead of lighter...)so today... God reminds me.. that HE is my source... no other person.. not finances.. God alone is my source..

so with that being said... when I look to people to comfort me and help me walk this walk.. I am looking to the wrong one.. because I need to look instead to God.. and even if He chooses a person to encourage or give a word.. it didn't come from that person.. it STILL came from God...

so what I long for.. what I wait for.. I am not waiting on a person... a person cannot fulfill what I need... only God.. so when He walks me into position... it wasn't given to me by man.. it was given to me be God.. and the position does not belong to me.. it belongs to God.. if He chooses to give it or take it.. has nothing to do with circumstance or people.. it is all up to God...

when He walks me into the position He has prepared me for... my responsibility is to keep HIM foremost in my thoughts.. and to do the job that He has called me to do... the way He has called me to do it... and to be thankful for what He gives at all times... regardless of what or who He uses to give it... and to cherish it.. as it does not belong to me to begin with... it belongs to God...