1 corinthians 13: 4-5 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.

I look at these verses sometimes.. and some days I think I can attain that goal.. and other days.. not so much... I am a jealous person.. I don't like people to touch what is mine.. I don't like people to touch even what I want to be mine... 

I remember in the past I would think well I am a great person so if they mess around and lose me it would be their loss... but that is a stupid mentality... truly.. when someone is hurt by someone else.. usually everyone involved is hurt.. 

what is it that makes me jealous? I would guess it is the truth of insecurity.. in my own case usually insecurity hidden by the look of confidence... 

why do I demand my own way?.. well idk.. I think this one could be selfishness.. and imagining I am always right... 

I definitely can be irritable.. usually leading back to not getting my own way.. 

and I would love to be able to say that I keep no record of being wronged.. but that would be a lie... 

how do you really keep no record of being wronged? I mean even if you forgive someone.. don't you still fear that hurt will come back around again? how do we get rid of that?

I think the only way that we can ever really love someone is through Christ.. His love is pure and real.. even when mine is not.. Father continue to change me into someone who loves others as You do.. unconditionally.. forgetting all wrongs.. trusting.. and allowing others to be themselves and me being happy about it...