Ecclesiastes 8: 14 And this is not all that is meaningless in our world. In this life, good people are often treated as though they were wicked, and wicked people are often treated as though they were good. This is so meaningless!

15 So I recommend having fun, because there is nothing better for people in this world than to eat, drink, and enjoy life. That way they will experience some happiness along with all the hard work God gives them under the sun.

16 In my search for wisdom and in my observation of people’s burdens here on earth, I discovered that there is ceaseless activity, day and night. 17 I realized that no one can discover everything God is doing under the sun. Not even the wisest people discover everything, no matter what they claim.

​I think sometimes about Solomon.. having been the wisest person ever... and in his old age somehow his heart is turned away from the things of God.. 

when he says in v15 about ​recommending having fun and enjoying life.. I agree that we are to enjoy this life God has given us, but I wonder if by the time this was written.. if solomon wasn't feeling estranged from God.. wasn't feeling like life is futile.. 

I have been feeling that way myself lately.. I have a good life.. I am in no way complaining about my life.. but I will say that some days I am very saddened by not having love in my life.. by being alone all these years.. and I am alone because I am waiting on God to bring me a relationship.. doesn't really matter the who of it.. just that I know it is from God.. and still I am alone.. now that doesn't mean that I would go back to the worldly ways.. at this point I doubt if I have what it takes to do that.. but I do sometimes feel like I have missed out on life... 

I wonder if solomon, with all this thousands of women, wasn't feeling like he wasn't loved and so he allowed women and worldly ways to lead him away from God in the old age of his life.. did solomon with all his wisdom.. with all his money.. all he had.. did he feel like his life was passing him by because he was unloved... 

Lord please keep me close to your heart.. regardless of my emotions.. don't allow me to stray away from You... amen.