Isaiah 50:4 The Sovereign Lord has given me his words of wisdom, so that I know how to comfort the weary. Morning by morning he wakens me and opens my understanding to his will.

​I admit.. some days this is my reality.. some days I wake up with understanding of what God desires from me.. of what His plans for me are.. but other days.. I got nothing.......... and that is really frustrating.. I think for the most part.. I am looking for God to reassure me every day that He has my life in His hands.. that I will be good because He is good to me.. but God doesn't work like that.. He wants me to just be satisfied to seek Him.. to just sit in silence before Him most days.. to just be comfortable with Him.. to just love Him.. no matter what.. that is what I am striving for right now in my life.. to just live every day.. just that day... not the weeks and months and years that haven't happened yet.. and also not re-living the good or bad that has already happened.. 

just today.. I am happy.. I am whole.. and in Jesus name.. I will be tomorrow too.. ​