Psalms 106: 14 In the wilderness their desires ran wild, testing God’s patience in that dry wasteland. 15  So he gave them what they asked for, but he sent a plague along with it.

I admit that in the wilderness my desires run wild.... 

sometimes it feels like when we do the right thing for a long time that we start to feel we deserve more or better or even just different..

I find this to be true in life with doing right financially.. sexually.. even in my eating habits... after I do the right thing for a long time I imagine if I give in and just satisfy these crazy desires for a little while... then I will be 'better' than right now... and the truth is that I never am... if I look at it from my finances.. it just sets me back a little more from the goal... if I were to do it in my sexual purity I am sure at this point that I would be horrified after the fact... and even with eating.. if I eat the wrong things for a few days in a row I start to feel sluggish and just icky.... 

I wondered about God sending them a plague to go along with what they really thought they wanted... and I know that I do NOT want anything so badly that I am willing to risk a plague to go along with it... and yet here we are.. time after time we fall short and do the wrong thing make the wrong choice and have to start again... 

the good news is... that even though we are so much like the israelites and we fall time and again... God is always willing to help us back up.. there is none like Him... and I am so thankful for His mercy and grace and love...