for a very long time I have had a vision from God... 

and many days it has looked nothing like what it should have looked like if I were correct in what I believe... yet I held on.. trusting and believing... this vision may have sounded like a personal vision but it had a kingdom vision attached to it... something I believe God has planned for His kingdom... and He was allowing me of all people to be part of His plan.... 

today I let go...

today... I say... God I am still accepting of your plan.. but I can't see it... and I am feeling as though possibly I was wrong.. so today... if God works it out.. then okay... and if He never does... that is okay too.... 

having said that... 
I think I will go out on a date with a man who acts like he likes me...