James 3: ¹³ Who in your community is understanding and wise? Let his example, which is marked by wisdom and gentleness, blaze a trail for others. ¹⁴ If your heart is one that bleeds dark streams of jealousy and selfishness, do not be so proud that you ignore your depraved state. ¹⁵ The wisdom of this world should never be mistaken for heavenly wisdom; it originates below in the earthly realms, with the demons. ¹⁶ Any place where you find jealousy and selfish ambition, you will discover chaos and evil thriving under its rule. ¹⁷ Heavenly wisdom centers on purity, peace, gentleness, deference, mercy, and other good fruits untainted by hypocrisy. ¹⁸ The seed that flowers into righteousness will always be planted in peace by those who embrace peace.

 

I read this last saturday and thought.. wow... if my heart is jealous and I am selfish... do not ignore my depraved state...

I am often jealous... I don't know what causes it... I have tried to kill it.. to block it out.. to pretend it is not there.. yet it is.. even if I never say it out loud... and selfishness... well I am selfish.. and I think as I get older and stay alone.. it gets worse and worse...

 

I don't know what the answers are... but I agree that I need rid of these two evils...

 

they don't affect my peace at most times.. well.. I guess the jealousy does.. but not the selfishness.. and it probably should.. LOL v16 says anywhere you find jealousy and selfish ambition you will discover chaos and evil thriving.. I don't like to imagine I am full of evil or chaos either one... but I do know that God knows me better than I know myself... so maybe it is true...