Matthew 26: 52 “Put away your sword,” Jesus told him. “Those who use the sword will die by the sword. 53 Don’t you realize that I could ask my Father for thousands of angels to protect us, and he would send them instantly? 54 But if I did, how would the Scriptures be fulfilled that describe what must happen now?”
55 Then Jesus said to the crowd, “Am I some dangerous revolutionary, that you come with swords and clubs to arrest me? Why didn’t you arrest me in the Temple? I was there teaching every day. 56 But this is all happening to fulfill the words of the prophets as recorded in the Scriptures.” At that point, all the disciples deserted him and fled.
how much are we really willing to endure for Christ and His purpose or calling? do we have a choice?
do we realize that Christ could have called down the angels to protect Him.. yet He did not..
I have to say.. this particular day.. I would call down some angels if I knew how... if I had that ability...
at that point.. at His lowest moment... all the disciples deserted Him and fled... is that how it happens? does everyone desert us at our hour of greatest need... when we have the hardest time.. does everyone leave us for more sunny skies?
I am feeling like I have endured too much too long.. I am feeling like quitting.. like surely I have been wrong about what I thought.. maybe I was just deceived by the enemy.. maybe I made it all up off desires that I didn't know I had.. maybe my pride is in the middle of all this making me think I am larger than I really am....
Jesus went to the garden of gethsemene right before this took place and three times He called out to God and said that if it was possible.. please take this suffering from Him... but at the end of it.. let His will be done...
I am at the garden myself.. surely there is another way... surely there does not need to be all this suffering... surely I am wrong in what I think or feel or see... yet I still say to God.. let Your will be done.. let it be done unto me as You have said...
this doesn't make me a great person.. not a great example.. not a person of much faith.. not a strong warrior for God... really.. when it comes down to it... when something is from God you have no options.. where do you go that you can get away from God? when we run.. what is it that happens? God comes after us... so the truth of it is... whatever this is.. it is in me like nothing ever has been before.. I have no out.. no back door to run out of... no way to leave... I am weak.. I would leave if I could find the door.. but somehow.. the door is hidden... and so I say to God... whatever is Your will.. let it be done..
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