Thankful...

today I look back at the past years of thanksgiving holidays in my life..

when I was young I felt that it was much confusion and disruption.. not realizing I was blessed to have such a large family... not realizing that I had what many people look a lifetime to have... I was raised to be a Christian.. I was in the church since birth.. I was saved by 5years old.. I had been given a vision by 18years old.. (which I refused by the way.. )

I determined to have my own way over God's and by the middle of my twenties I was in an abusive marriage.. fearful every waking moment.. sleeping with a knife under my pillow.. he had nailed windows in the house shut so that I could not get away while he slept... a very frightening life.. every day... never sure what would set it off.. so I just never spoke.. not at all...

now.. God has delivered me from where I was.. I have been given a new family... (as my first one disowned me..over racism and prejudice..)I have a good job.. a wonderful church.. a vision.. (that miraculously is not too far from the original one at 18...)

I am truly grateful... God has been very good to me.. for many years I was rebellious.. like the people of Israel.. and God chose to break me rather than leave me.. and I am so thankful that He did it His way... I have a wonderful life now.. God is truly my focus.. and whatever He does is all right with me...

I pray that each of you will come to the place in your life that you can look back and see all that God saved you from so that you can use that knowledge to know that He has a purpose in your life.. and allow Him to lead you into it...
Happy Thanksgiving...