God is REALLY SERIOUS about teaching me to obey Him and trust Him!!

I have been getting my nails done for a really long time... honestly... like 15-20years... most nail shops are owned by asians... and there are usually idols.. buddahs in the shop.. and they have food and drink set before this idol... (that of course never gets consumed)... when God got serious about cleansing me and changing me... He stopped me from going to these shops with idols in them by having my hands burn like as if on fire when they tried to touch me... so I prayed about it.. and He revealed to me that it is about the idols and that I am to not be defiled.. because I could defile someone else...

so in this conversation... I laugh and say to God.. when you find me a nail shop that does not worship idols.. I will go there... and He shows me a shop... I go in and I say to the woman... I have the craziest question for you... do you have a buddah in here? she said no.. I am a christian... (asian woman) she said my name is mary.. and my husband's name is joseph... so I start laughing and tell Jesus.. oh so you got jokes now....

I go to this shop since 2008... then they sold it... to a woman that is christian but she is not good at nails... I went without nails at all for about 3 weeks... today I go to get my nails done.. at a place I went to before God sent me to the christians... and she is glad to see me.. she actually even asks me to go out with her tonight and I am very tempted.. but somehow say no.... while she is doing my nails.. (new set mind you...) I am uncomfortable about Jesus.. and I say Lord.. I promise you... if you show me who I can go to that is christian.. I promise you I will....

this afternoon.. just a few minutes ago... 2hrs after getting the nails done... I get a text from the woman that used to do my nails and moved away... telling me that she is back... she is christian... and I realize.. I should have just waited on God... but it just felt like there was no answer...

how often do I take things into my own hands because I can't see the answer that God is bringing.. even if it is right around the corner... how soon will I really learn what trusting God really is? how soon until I finally learn to be completely obedient... even when I can't see the answer... can I trust He will bring it... I am really wishing I had waited and let her put the new set on me.... I am sorry Lord... continue to forgive me and work with me as I learn to follow you....